It’s our 49th Anniversary today Clive, the first without you. I can’t believe yet that you are not here. It just doesn’t seem real, it’s like this has happened to someone else. Lesley and Jason just didn’t know what to do this year for presents, it’s been really hard for them, losing you so suddenly, they are so heartbroken,. All of the grandchildren children miss you, they talk about you all the time, there is no way any of them will forget you and all the school runs you did with them. Oh I just want you back Clive. My life has been torn apart since you left it. My tears today fall unheeded, I can hardly see. I know you told me not to cry that first day we came to see you in hospital but I can’t help it. My nights are so lonely and hard for me to get through, knowing that you are not around. Walk beside me today Clive, I need to feel your presence is with me. Those three words “I Love You” are easy to say but I love you more than you will ever know. These last 3 months without you have been the worst of my life. The future without you would be meaningless for me if it wasn’t for Lesley, Jason and the grandchildren. James visits me every week, sometimes with Tez and the rabbits. They all look after me and make sure every day that I am okay. Tomorrow I will be going to see the Wedding Co-ordinator with Jason and Karen and I am dreading it. I just don’t know how we are going to get through the wedding without you. I never realised until it was too late just how much I needed you to lean on and you won’t be there for me to lean on that day. I miss you in so many ways Clive, I love you today and always. Anne 💔💔💔😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️