Dear dad, what a difficult week it’s been. Emotions are up and down right now. Every day as soon as I wake up I think about this time last year. I think about what you were going through and always think of how you must of felt. I’m so thankful for the zoom calls but it was so hard, only seeing you for a short while on the calls. Not being at the hospital with you like we were over the years. We were so thankful to be able to visit you from the 6th Jan. Well tomorrow is New Year’s Eve. I’m not looking forward to it at all. Over the years you would sometimes come to Jasons, sometimes be at home in bed because you wasn’t feeling well and other times in hospital. But this year you are not here. It’s not fair. This has been the hardest year of my life. And I’m in no mood to wish any one a happy new year. I will be normal in the best way I can but I’d rather skip the celebration of the dreaded saying of happy new year. No year is ever going to be the same with out you here with us. We will all be raising a glass for you and you better be having a jack Daniels up there and not forgetting a large glass of red wine or two. You are always in my thoughts. I love and miss you dad. All my love Lesley 💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx