Dear Clive, it’s been really hard today to keep a lid on my feelings. Lesley, Andy, Jason, Karen and me have all been kept really busy clearing the garage out at last. It’s not finished yet but it already looks so much better. Sophie and Max looked after Rocky for me while we all worked hard. But the memories of our wedding day 51 years ago still got through. Happy memories. When I think back I don’t know how we all managed sleeping at your Mum’s house, aside from all my family we also had your 3 aunties, Harry and Kathy and all their kids staying there. They did a really great job getting all the food for the wedding ready on time. Then we had to get it all to the hall as well as the drinks, glasses, plates, cutlery etc., I don’t think the youngsters of today could manage to do what we did then. It was one of the best days of my life. I was a bit emotional as 4 p.m. came round today thinking back to that time and knowing I can’t be with you again. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, my best friend, my husband. I wish every night before I go to bed, when I talk things over with you that you could come back to me. I really miss you, I’ll always miss you and love you forever. The pain of losing you is still so very fierce. It doesn’t get easier you just learn to cope with it. On this our third anniversary that we have not been together hurts so much, and each passing year will hurt even more. 💔💔💔💔💔