My Dearest Clive, I finally got round to painting the wall today. I thought it would look nice when it was done but the paint is crap, and the wall looks worse than before. I’ve missed moaning about it all to you. I wish so much you could have been with me today. Needless to say I’ve had a big breakdown today. I think all the time of the last day I was with you and I see in mind your breathing becoming less and less, then your heart just stopped. I can’t get over it, I can’t believe it. God I want you back so much. Each day for me is just putting one foot in front of the other and getting through the day as best I can. As the wedding comes closer I know I’m going to miss you so much not being by my side, how am I going to cope? Putting on a brave face all the time is so draining. I love you so much and miss you more than words can say. My heart is so heavy, it hurts so much. Love you always my Clive. 💔💔💔💔😘😘😘😘 Anne 💔💔💔💔