Dear Clive, these last few days have been just awful. Anger has set in now, I’m ranting and raving all the time, I’m hurting those that I love by taking my anger out on them. I’m so angry that you have been taken from me. Tears fall then I get really angry again. I find it is very hard to try and hide how I feel. I’m so miserable all the time on my own. I hate the nighttime without you in the house. Just the thought of having to go to Jason’s wedding without you is making me feel ill, I just don’t know how we are going to get through that day. Having to smile all the time, make believe we are having a good time, when I know I will always have you on my mind constantly. It should be a really happy day but to be honest I can’t wait for it to be over. You are going to be missed so very much, yes we will all still be talking about you, and sharing memories, but it is going to be so difficult for us. I hope you will be beside us in spirit Clive because believe me I do need you by my side that day. To Quote the words of a song by Barry White sums up how I feel and have always felt about you, “you’re my first, my last, my everything.” We can’t have the evening disco at the wedding and maybe it is just as well because we won’t be able to have our slow dances together. I love you so, so much. My heart aches all the time. I miss you Clive. Love always. Anne ❤️💔❤️💔❤️💔❤️💔😘😘