Dear dad, I’m missing you so, so much. I wake up and straight away you are in my thoughts. I still can’t believe you are not here. It’s such a strange feeling. I can’t believe the situation we are in is real. I’ve been watching videos of you to hear your voice because although I can’t believe you are not here I don’t want to let go and have to come to terms with it. Im about to start my wedding speech soon. You always teased me about it because you know I’m dreading it. And I know you enjoyed teasing me about it! But I am going to try my best and make you proud, up in heaven. I will do my best but I think I’m going to cry and not get my words out. Which I don’t want to do because it’s supposed to be a happy occasion. But dad I know that this will make you laugh,…….I’m going to get Andy to take over,( if I need him ) and stress him out with my speech 😂 I know that would make you laugh, I think you would be laughing so much watching him under pressure, 😂 You are so truly missed here dad. There’s an big gap in our lives now. Shine bright up there, and look over us all, we love and miss you, and you are always in our thoughts. Always. I love you. Lots of love Lesley xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx