Dear Clive, well where do I start? Ditto everything that Lesley has written in her last message. I’ve been feeling the loss of you so much this weekend, much more than usual. My eyes hurt with the tears I’ve cried today. I do my best to carry on as normal but it’s really hard. The nearer it gets to the wedding the more upset I get. You are going to be so missed on that day, much more than other days. I’m going to miss you dancing with me, being in the same hotel room with me when the wedding is all over. Seeing all the other couples there and feeling the loss of you so much more. We all miss you so much. I wish you could come back to let us know you are alright and that you are with everyone we have lost over the years. I still expect you to be sitting up in your bed at night every time I go up to bed. Sometimes it’s such a shock realising you are not there anymore. It’s the same when I wake every morning, my first thought is always to go in and see how you are, then I remember you are gone. It’s been nearly 9 months now, where has the time time gone? It only feels like we lost you recently. The pain never lessens. I’ll never get over losing you Clive. We had some rough times that we got through together but we had lots of really good times during our years together. I cherish all those memories. Just lately I have been remembering times when we first met, when love was just growing and how many times we used to travel back and forth to see each other in those early days. Places we went together, the laughing we did, we were so happy just being together. I’m going now before I break down, just know that I love you so, so much, I wish you were here so I could tell you. Love you. Anne. 💔💔💔💔💔