Dear Clive, it’s been a while since I wrote to you, I hope you don’t think I have been neglecting you, I could never do that because I think of you every single day and wish the same wish that you could be beside me again. I know you will always be proud of Lesley, she really tried to be able to say her speech for Jason’s wedding. She was making herself ill over it. I’m glad that she handed it over to Andy. The day will be hard enough for us all, you won’t be there and Bill cannot be there. What a really horrible year this has been. I don’t know if you remember the ornament Lesley bought us some years ago, for an anniversary present. It is of an old man and woman sitting with arms round each other and heads bent together. It is by the lamp, and every night that I turn off the lamp my eyes always go to that ornament and it breaks my heart when I look at it and think that that should be us now. We had so much to look forward to, we had everything we ever wanted, then our happiness was taken so cruelly from us. I hurt every day, again Lesley is right that this unbearable pain just does not get any better. I hope you will be beside me on Jason’s wedding day, I’m going to miss your presence so much. We took each other for granted over the years and now I just wish that we could have had even a few more years together. We were good together you and me, there will never be another you, I wish I had told you more often when you were here just how much I loved you and always will. My life shattered the day you went away, nothing will put it back together again. Lesley, Jason and the grandkids keep me going, without them I would have nothing. I am grateful that we did have so many years together and at the same time so resentful that we never had many more. I love you my Clive, so, so much. I miss you all the time. Keep watch over us all, you are always in our hearts. Love you - Anne 💔❤️💔❤️😘😘😘😘