Dear dad, well it’s been a rollercoaster of emotions…. James and Tez collected their keys to their new flat last night, and then…… James proposed to Tez. Like mum said, I wish you could be here to share the news too. It’s so hard to get through everything that is going on without you around. I remember visiting you in the hospital on your birthday and you asked about the kids. It was the same day that James and Tez were moving to a rented flat in Bexley. I told you and you said good luck to them. Lovely couple. And well now they are engaged. It’s very emotional. I’m so proud of James and how hard he works. Always driving here there and everywhere. Working every spare hour he can to make a good family home. You would be very proud just like mum and like Andy and I. These should be happy days but it really is a struggle getting through and smiling. It hurts so much in my stomach. Like someone is ripping my stomach out. I know I have to put a brave face on but you are always in my thoughts, because you should be here with a happy face too. I hope you are happy where ever you are, looking down at everyone and seeing how everyone is getting on. We are all sad in our own ways, and I know that you wouldn’t want us to be sad, but that’s what it’s like deep down for everyone. Because we miss you so, so much. Shine bright dad. I love you very much. Love Lesley 💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔xxxxxxxxxx