Dear Clive, you are my first thought every day when I wake up, I still think you are just in the next bedroom, then reality hits me. It’s Christmas Day but it really feels like any other day. This time last year you were still on ITU. Apparently you had some ice cream that day and on Christmas Eve we were told that you weren’t out of the woods yet but they thought you could get better. This gave us such hope. We all had a video call with you that day, at least we got to see you. This year is very different, our first Christmas without you. Lesley is right today is going to be so difficult with you not there, with your dancing hat on. Our photos today will not be the same without you not being with us. I miss you so much, I just don’t know how to get through today. We always got up together Christmas Day to open our presents and take pictures of each other, that’s another thing that will never be the same. I only hope that there is a heaven up there and that you will be with your family and mine today all having a happy day. I need you so much, my heart is completely broken. Crying doesn’t help, but I can’t help the tears coming. Love always Anne 💔💔💔💔💔