Dear Clive, Rocky has gone home again, he’s only been gone 5 hours and I miss him. It’s funny how attached you get.. You probably wouldn’t have let him go home, he is so lovely. It’s lonely here, I can’t think of how many times I’ve said that this last year or more. You were the other half of me and I feel your loss every single day and night. I’ll just never get over losing you. Lesley sent me some videos of us all. Some at Jason’s for New Years Eves gone by. In them we were always dancing and happy, all of us together. New Year’s Eve will never be the same without you, last New Years Eve fell flat, we all left early, not like other years when it was 2 or 3 in the morning. I kept expecting you to be there when I turned around, it was the same at the wedding, I looked for you a few times, especially in the evening before I realised what I was doing. It’s so hard going to social events without you being there for me. Robbie’s wedding will be another hard day for me, even though you were mostly drinking with the men, I knew you were there if I needed you. I miss dancing with you, holding you, you holding me, I can’t bear the hurt inside that I feel, it’s so hard to express how I really feel. Life just goes on for me, the same as before except now I do things on my own. Lesley and Jason keep me sane in their own different ways but sometimes I just feel that I’m going mad. I feel that I’ve been robbed of the best years that we should have had. Why did we leave it so late Clive? You have my love always, I miss you so much 💔💔💔 Anne 💔💔💔💔