Dear Clive, the time has finally come around to go on holiday to Kos. I am looking forward to it in one way but not in another. What I mean by that is I feel like I am leaving you behind, I like to be at home because I feel closer to you somehow. Lesley is going to be looking after Rocky for me, she will be worn out by the time I get back and in need of a holiday herself. I am just so grateful to her for being able to look after Rocky, it puts my mind at rest. I hope he behaves himself. Rocky is upstairs now on my bed, looking out of the window for her, to go for his long walk with her. I wish you were here to see him. He is so big now, I nearly fall over him sometimes 😃. Sometimes it seems such a long time since we lost you and at other times it feels like only yesterday. I relive that last day with you so many times. I was in limbo for such a long time afterwards, it just felt like it was happening to someone else. Even now I forget and go to talk to you then it hits me all over again how much I really miss you. I will miss you so much at Robbie’s wedding as I did at Jason’s. When your other half is not with you it makes me feel like a spare part. I missed dancing with you at Jason’s wedding, I really felt your loss when the first dance began. I felt like a rabbit caught in a cars headlights then I got our Tommy to dance with me. After that most of the evening was a blur. I’ll sign off now Clive, I will forever love and miss you so much. 💔💔💔💔💔😘😘😘😘😘