Dear dad, I’m sitting on the sofa with so many thoughts in my head about you. I still can’t get my head around the fact that you are in heaven and not here with us all. It’s the most weirdest feeling I’ve ever had to experience. I feel so strange inside. So sad and heartbroken. My stomach is in so much pain because that’s where it starts to ache from. It’s like being kicked and winded. Christmas is fast approaching and mum and I just can’t get into the Christmas spirit. We are both trying. But it’s so hard. We are sad and heartbroken, and the closer it gets the more pain we feel. I cry at Christmas songs, cry at the thought of the day. I know you wouldn’t want me to cry. I know you wouldn’t want us to be upset. But Gee whizz it’s hard. This really is a hard time to get through. You certainly will be with us at Christmas. You will be around us all. I hope you will be looking down and maybe, just maybe give one of us a cheeky sign, be it a joke or just a strange feeling for one of us. I love you so much. Shine bright dad. Lots of love Lesley 💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔xxxxxxxxxxxx