Dear dad, it’s me again! I hope your not getting fed up of my same messages over and over again. I’m really struggling right now. With Christmas approaching. I used to enjoy Christmas songs on the radio but now I dread them. The words really upset me. It’s almost 2 weeks until Christmas Day and I’m just not in the Christmas spirit mood. I just feel like it’s the kids next school break. Even with the trees up, lights on and all the Xmas bits and bobs in the shops, I just can’t get into the spirit of it all. This time last year you were home. You had covid and wasn’t well. But you seemed to be coping. I have a photo of you on the 12 Dec smiling, sitting at your usual place on the sofa at home. 7 days later I had to call the ambulance. These dates are creeping up and it’s so hard to deal with. All I keep thinking is…. This time last year….how time flies as I can’t believe all this started in our family a year ago. Life is cruel, I miss you dad. So much. Love you. 💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔💙💔xxxxxxxx